Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Observe ME

I should add more observations about myself, that pertains to the blog a couple weeks back about family.


I am the biggest screwup of all, you know. i've made enough mistakes for all of us combined. I should perhaps have been harsher on myself. I apologize if I came across as a know-it-all, or made adsumptions or observations that offended anyone.

sigh

I love my sisters and brother. I love my family. I am working on loving myself. That's the hard one. I can't forgive myself, and now I've added another thing to work on. Great. I'm sick of 'lessons'. I've done my fair share of working on things. I need a break.

10 Comments:

At 4:46 PM, Anonymous Julie said...

There was nothing wrong with your previous observation posting. It was quite accurate and positive and loving. I don't think Carolyn took offense to your observation, I think she was reinforcing her fiestyness (don't know if that's spelled right).

 
At 6:55 PM, Anonymous Carolyn said...

or just plain making an ass of herself. not the swearword kind of ass, you know, I would NEVER do that, what I really mean to say is that other kind. the donkey kind.

 
At 7:35 PM, Anonymous Marshee said...

What, you the biggest screwup? Ha! I thought I took the cake, you always did well, I thought. You accomplished so much on your own, I admired your confidence and ability to do it on your own. And look at the three wonderful young people you raised; you did so much right! Everyone has made mistakes, we're all human and that's what we do.

 
At 7:38 PM, Anonymous Marsh said...

You sounding like a know-it-all? I enjoy your writing style and you certainly did not seem like a know-it-all. As Julie said, your observations were accurate and kind. Thanks for not telling all my mistakes!

 
At 10:42 PM, Blogger Lynne said...

My visit to Bay City prompted the observations. I marveled at all of us sitting around the table with piles of pizzas and garlic knots, the conversation filled with laughter, joy, and true family connectivity, despite our very different personalities and life experiences. It was obvious that there is a bond between us as family. We did not grow up learning how to be close, and we had no extended family to speak of, that we were close to on a frequent basis due to the sepration of the Beamish offspring, and the physical distance between the McCavitts and the Whites.

We have lived in various states (and states of mind ha ha), with varying experiences, and we have all made life choices and sometimes life has forced us to make choices.

Yet here were are, all together in one state again, supporting each other in the ways available, and we are joined together........that particular day....by pizza.

 
At 10:57 PM, Anonymous karen said...

okay - i definitely missed something. i just went down and read that post and the comments and don't see why you are berating yourself, lynne. it was a lovely post and your comments were great. i have loved being a part of your family. maybe i am just not getting something. but try to be nice to my lynnie, okay? :)

 
At 6:10 AM, Blogger Lynne said...

oh, I told you, I'm just crazy.

 
At 9:27 AM, Anonymous Carolyn said...

and I recall when Lynne who was working for a car lot decided she wanted to be in graphic design, so she learned a bunch of new programs, got a mac instead of a pc. so learned a whole new operating system. got a job as receptionist/designer at Design Craftsman, then decided to ! move to Traverse Cit! got a job there and bought a house, too. coulda just sat in Saginaw.

 
At 10:08 AM, Blogger Lynne said...

That was my breaking away, my growing up, I felt.
I had never stood on my own, and I wanted the adventure. My kids were all grown up, in college and beyond, and it felt like my turn.

I did it. I lived in TC for 5 years and have to content myself with that length of time. It feels like my home and the tearing away of all I accomplished is equally as difficult as dealing with my medical situation.

I just have to be glad I had the 5 years there, and the satisfaction that I did it, and the friends that I found and will always have.

 
At 4:12 PM, Blogger Lynda said...

I thought your oldest sister sounded a lot like how I am - and I am the oldest too! It was a great post. Your family really loves you and that is a wonderful thing. To me at least, physical assets mean nothing compared to my family.

I think it is funny how you seconded guessed yourself because yesterday I almost wrote a poem about that. I was thinking about how most people wonder what others think of them, when in reality the 'others' are thinking the same things themselves.

I find it hard to love myself sometimes too. Just remember, you are unique, wonderful, and if others love you, there must be something to that.

Sorry I haven't visited for a while. I have been thinking of you and glad you are still well.

BTW, hope you don't mind I posted about you on Laurianne's Hope again. It has been a while now since I wrote it, but I think you are pretty remarkable!

 

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