Thursday, June 30, 2005

I Learned Something... isn't that amazing?

I learned that persons with disabilities, who are receiving Medicaid due to their health status, and wish to work, can now work without losing their Medicaid. It's a fairly new law that gives those that wish to return to work, but simply can't afford to lose thier Medicaid insurance (like me.... a cancer patient in ongoing treatment). I can work, earn a livable wage, even have a 401K without being penalized and therefore having my health (and life) jeopardized.

I'm planning on returning to work part time, since I am doing so well, have applied for a part time graphic design job with the local newspaper, and hope to get back in my own place and once again be self-sufficent and independent.

Sounds like a plan.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Health Care Handcuffs

Since my diagnosis, subsequent treatment, loss of job, loss of home, loss of income, I have been forced to fall into the arms of public health care, supported by my tax dollars, and the system that has been provided for me..... and it is a clumsy, humiliating, wall of difficulty.

I am feeling pretty well, and would like to work part time. If I do, however, my medical care financial provision will be reduced, making my effort to support myself, be productive member of society, and self-sufficient a worthless effort. If I work, I actually LOSE money.

I can't afford my own appartment on the social security disability insurance I receive, I am allowed to work to supplelment that income, but if I do so, I lose my medical insurance provided by the system I have been forced into through no fault of my own.

Here I am, a cancer patient, willing to work, and I am unable to.

Explain to me why this makes sense.


Originally uploaded by lynnegr8t.
left to right
Ian, the groom
Justin, the Best Man
Jonathan, Jill's older brother (son 2)
Josh, Jill's oldest brother (son 1)

Lynne and Jonathan

Originally uploaded by lynnegr8t.
Dancing with my son Jonathan at Jill's wedding.

Lynne and Jill, June 11, 2005

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Mother and daughter on Jill's wedding day. I am so happy to be so healthy and happy and be able to share this day with her.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Everyone get down, and no one will get hurt!

Yesterday, Jill's first day home from her honeymoon, she went to the bank to change her name on her accounts, and as she sat talking to accounts manager in one of those little cubicles, two men came in with those white paper masks on, with pistols drawn, announced that it was a robbery, and told everyone to get down.....Jill, who was already sitting, simply froze and didn't look at them again, and they proceeded to go to a teller and demand cash. The bank man who was standing talking with Jill when the robbers entered the bank, slowlly moved to attempt to press the 911 call button, and the robber who appeared to be in charge said "Don't move and no one will get hurt". He stopped moving. Once they had the money from the teller, they left the bank. Two employees ran to the lobby area (are they nuts???? no job or no amount of money is worth the possiblility that they could be killed!) They saw the robbers drop money and stoop to pick it up and g et into a vehicle and drive off.

Meanwhile, Jill used her cell phone and called her friend who is a policeman in town, to see if he might be on duty...he wasn't, so she quickly dialed 911 and told them of the robbery. Once the police arrived, she gave a description of the men, and the weapon she saw, and was allowed to come home.

She didn't get her account change made, the bank remained closed for the afternoon, but because of witnesses outside the bank giving a description of the vehicle, the pair of robbers were chased, they rammed their car into a fence, jumped out, one was chased down by a police dog and arrested, the other tried to steal one of hte officer's empty police car....but was aprehended before he could do so.

Since we have inside information from Jill's friend, it was reported that one of the robbers asked for a blankie while being arrested, because he was "cold". It was 85° out. He didn't get the blankie.

We live in a very safe neighborhood, this bank is 2 blocks away, and it was noon on a bright sunny day, a new young wife cheerfully attending to her errands, looking forward to her new married life, and all it's potential..... and all of it could have been stopped cold iin an instant if the bank robbery had gone wrong.

I am a very happy mother today, being aware of life's dangers and how truly precious life is, to realize how very fortunate we all are that this story ended the way it did. No one was hurt, and the bad guys got caught.

Monday, June 20, 2005


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Thursday, June 16, 2005

2 down, 1 to go


All 3 of my kids will have been married within 18 months of each other.

June 11, my daughter married the man that the universe put in her path. (I'll tell the story of how they met sometime)

They had a very lovely outdoor wedding, and in spite of what can be cool weather in early June in Michigan, it was in hot and humid all week, and about an hour before the wedding, it clouded up, and began to rain.

His parents had built an arbor, complete with flagstone floor and arches, we rented one of those cool white pointy-top tents, a potty trailer (two actual bathrooms in a camper-like trailer, complete with A/C). The wedding took place at Ian's parents' home, on their 5 acre site, complete with barn and 2 horses. (Jill's and Ian's).

We spent days cutting grass, laying pavers, stringing lights, hanging flower baskets, reparing fences, planting flowers, weeding gardens, setting up tables and chairs, hanging chandelier crystals from trees, in 88 humid degrees.... to have it RAIN
at wedding time.

The house is set on ahill, so we could see out the window onto the tent below, with people hovering under the canopy out of the rain. We had thought to buy umbrellas to place around for use as sun parasols, but with the rain....well.....

The string quartet played in a corner under the tent.... Jill, dressed and ready to go, kept looking out the window, tryiing to decide if she would wait it out, concede and get married under the tent, or brave the rain and get married wet.... when the sky cleared, the rain stopped, and we all said "let's go!" We hurried and marched our way out to the gathered, waiting crowd... and they were married in a short and sweet ceremony, outside, in the arbor, under the arches, by an earth mother sort of reverend.

While Ian had waited for the rain to stop, he ran down to the tent to listen to the quartet... he did this barefoot, and when the rain broke and the wedding proceeded, he just went ahead and got married in tux and bare feet. But that was fitting, because Ian is just ian.

They exchanged rings, then exchanged a single red rose, as a pledge to remember this first gift of love and promised to use the rose as a symbol of their love for one another. Next she's on to Vet school!

The evening proceeded with dinner and dance outside (in the now much cooler weather), with family and friends and a very happy mother.... who had worried over this past year that she might not be healthy enough, or might not be there at all.

Instead, I danced at her wedding, and had a smile on my face all night long. I wore the purple dress, and a jade necklace.
Purple for spirituality, and the green stone as a healing stone for the heart chakra.

2 down, 1 to go. Next wedding: November....Jon and middle son and his fiance. With some luck, I might get a grandchild out of this one!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Getting wackier and wackier

I have begun to have Reiki treatments. It's a strange experience, and not one I'm sure I believe in, but I had one done while at the Connecticut retreat, and I felt good about it. There, I had my chakras aligned (and I like to say "and my tires rotated"). My throat chakra was closed, indicating I am not good at expressing what I need...which is so true.

Yesterday I had a longer treatment here at home, and it was a little different, but essentially the same process. The person who administers the treatment is considered the conduit. Through his or her hands and body the knowledge of the universe (God, whatever) is transmitted to them, regarding the person to whom the treatment is being given. It can deal with health matters, life matters, just about anything....

I guess you could say they are straigtening out your energy pathways. I felt very relaxed, but aware, and could see colors as the treatment went on. The colors generally coordinated with the chakra areas upon which she was focused, but not always. A few times I felt a tingling sensation, or maybe a better description is a slight vibration in my limbs or around my body.

I have decided it can't hurt, and even if it does nothing but relax me, that is a good thing, and a help to my body in fighting the cancer.

Numerology next? I doubt it.

Friday, June 03, 2005


7 days til my baby girl gets married. She's youngish...23, and her fiance is 24. They're very good together, and they are goofily crazy about each other, communicate well, and have a wonderful life ahead of them.

Lots of preparations have been going on at Ian's parent's house. The wedding will be outside, and they've done landscaping, added huge stone steps, a garden wall, an arbor under which they'll be married. Last Saturday I planted about 20 pots of flowers to set around, and we have hanging baskets galore. There are gorgeous perennial gardens, apple will be beautiful.

There will be a big white tent, you know the kind...with the big pointy peaks. For restrooms, there will be a camper-type trailer that is just mens and women's bathrooms, with A/C and a stereo. I guess that's in case someone has to be in there a long time.

There will be a string quartet, an earth-mother minister, bird seed to throw...
the quartet will launch into "All You Need is Love"...that should be cool on strings.

I'm happy that I am feeling well, and have had good medical news this week....just in time for the wedding!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005


Got the results of my first CT since beginning the Tarceva, and my tumors have shrunk by 40%.... and I am only 1 of 2 patients out of 50 that have had that result...most patients have a stabalizing response, but mine SHRUNK.

I am awesome.

Thanks Dr. K, thanks Genetech, thank you Bernie, thank you Ruth, and thank you Universe.

Visualization II begins tomorrow.

Go Lynne!!!!